Popular hip hop star, Chris Brown has revealed his frustration on owning up for the devil, admitting that hearing God speaks for the first time was comforting.

The pop star who was acclaimed to be a member of a group called ‘illuminati’, made this know while sharing a post on his official facebook page, lamenting that the world had no idea how many challenges he had to deal with on a daily basis.

“When you are tired of the devil running your life and you hear God speak to you for the first time. No one knows what I deal with day to day. The average man wouldn’t hesitate to blow his brain out but that is a coward way out,” he said.

He also declared that he has lost patience for anything that could expose him to self destruction, noting that “what is on the surface always look like one big party but inside, there is a little boy looking for help and guidance. My soul will always be pure. I just want to do music and most importantly, be a great father. I don’t have patience for anything that will cause me self destruction.”

It should be noted that before his public rebuke on devil, Chris Brown had in time past sang to defend devil in one of his tracks title ‘falling angel’.